#mark life#
柯雪碧最近经常语出惊人
不想理她，她居然说
“你不要你女儿了吗”
因为要她睡觉，不想让她老说话就不回她，背对着她。
她就自己爬下床，带着哭腔，自己打开房间门。
一边走一边说
“你不要你女儿了”
我怀疑自己的耳朵
问她“你说什么女儿？”
她奶声奶气又带哭腔的又再说了一次
没听清，她又反复回来跟我说多几次“你不要你的女儿了”
也不知道什么时候居然会用第三人称称自己。
睡前刷到一个年轻单亲妈妈带孩子的视频
真的有那种感觉
就是有你在就是我想要的生活。

When you are a teenager,you are inevitably excited and scared, so you are conflicted and exciting, that’s why you don’t set limits and try things out,so you get something out of it.
As you get older,time pass and things change,even if life is uneventful as water,you will naturally have a few things to be grateful for,something of which are unforgettable memories,and some of which are, naturally,regrettable memories.
Being remembered is a very romantic word,because no matter how things change,at least there will always be a place for you in your mind,so I am grateful that I have always liked to record and photograph them over the years. The reason for this,however,is also the fear that I am somewhat stupid,will remember wrongly,will forget.
I’ve been writing and writing and writing and deleting,just documenting the experiences of a teenager in the past,and I’m not a teenager anymore. But I still hope to be like the old days when I was not afraid of the years and setback.HBD

#随记##77随笔##幸福终点站[电影]#
Life is waiting.
Everybody is waiting.
幸福有没有终点我不知道，至少我知道我幸不幸福，现在的答案是否定的，不知道以后的答案是什么，对了，也可能没有以后。

等待，标准答案永远是再等等，等考上好大学就好了，等找份好工作就好了，等结婚嫁人生孩子就好了，等退休养老就好了……等，等，等，等，等……等临死前再来遗憾悔恨痛苦吧。

我不知道要叫我等什么，我又有什么可等的，又有什么值得我等？等你所谓的“命运”吗？巧了，我自打生出来就不信命，我只信我自己。

等一个没有未来的未来？等一个无法期待的人？等一个缥缈虚无的幸福？等一个可笑又可悲的命运？这世界不是你疯了就是我疯了，可笑，可是少数偏偏又是最不占理的，那大抵就是我疯了，那就疯了吧。