I’m splitting the bamboo strips , in the ancient town this morning, I saw there’s an iron shop, an I asked how much a bamboo splitting knife was? The seller said 40 yuan [笑cry], Jesus, the splitting knifes in his shop were just so-so, how could them be as expensive as the good quality bamboo knife in online shop? [抠鼻屎][不好意思]

I hate this lifestyle. I hate it. I really do, hate this.
I don’t want to get married. I don’t want to have kids. I don’t want to settle down.
What’s the point anyway? I want to explore the possibilities of life.
This feels like I’m dead inside. I’m just counting the days. What day is it today? I don’t know. I don’t care.
This is not life at all.
This is just staying alive and I hate this.

“我刚开始上艺术学校，正尝试着找到属于自己的风格呢。我在用弗兰肯斯坦式的方法，借用其他艺术家的想法和技巧，然后试着在它们的基础上做些改动。很难创作出新东西来，因为总觉得我想到的一切以前都有人做过了。高中时还相对容易些，毕竟才刚起步，不可能会让自己失望。但如今我已经受过了一些培训，就感觉到要做出好作品的压力了。我的作品似乎得保证有一定的质量，否则就白瞎了我所付出的努力。真的好难回到以前‘咋样都行’的状态。”

“I’m just beginning art school. I’m trying to find my own voice and style. I’m doing it in a Frankenstein sort of way. I’m borrowing ideas and techniques from other artists, and then I try to change them a little. It’s hard to create something new because it feels like everything has been done before. It was easier in high school. I was just starting out so it was impossible to disappoint myself. But now I have some training and I feel pressure to make something good. It seems like my work needs to have a certain quality or it’s not worth the effort. It’s hard to get back to ‘anything goes.’”