Jules once told me that every night when she was a kid , like, five or something... She’d lock herself in the bathroom , get down on her hands and knees, and... pray to God. She’d pray that when she woke up in the morning , she'd be 25 years old. She’d live with her best friend ,a girl. Someone she hadn’t met yet , but…someone she knew she'd trust forever. I don't know why, but when she told me that story, I started to cry so hard I hyperventilated. Jules just kept laughing and saying, "What's wrong?" But... I didn't know.

I've been trying to be divisive for a while cuz i find it kinda fun to wear in different personalities, styles. Sometimes I sharply show some enthusiasm and funny to the people instead of staying calm even a bit coward. Sometimes I really wanna shape myself like I can defend against all kinds of critics reproaches even insult. And also, i dug up my fatal disadvantage which is I don't have much personal and unique attitude, I always play a role which is tolerant and bending to the others, i don't mean to be so mean but sometimes I really accept so many influence from people passively, which I don't like at all from now on. I dream of dominance and control. I should reduce some 'i thought it would be …'and most of the time I should ask it loud. I'm gonna switch and switch, me myself is my world.
God send me a boyfriend for 1 year, plz

笑得我发癫啊啊啊抹茶概念曲来袭
我是抹茶
我生来绿色
我不需要任何人肯定
更不需要红豆 来依附我。
是的。我抹。
抹～～哦哦哦～～抹～～
Somebody call me Matcha
I just wanna hot shot
Don't you gonna try hard
Because I Already the T.O.P
My mama always saying "oh God"
I'm just the Matcha
haha~
The Matcha~
我生来绿色
我生来苦涩
我生来自由
沉淀为绿色
不需要任何人肯定
是你得不到的 绿色～
I'm just the Matcha