I could easily be alone. It doesn’t bother me to be alone. Some people I know they don’t like to be alone, I don’t mind it. I need it as a rest, and yeah, it kind of refreshes myself. Yeah, and then rest.
“我经常独处。我不会因独处而不安。我知道有些人不喜欢孤独，但我不在乎。我可以从独处中获得休息，恢复精神，然后就能彻底放松。”

虽然一直都说fearless
但自己越来越是fearless的反面
一旦发现对一个人开始上心
第一反应是找distractions
不想投入过多 不想对某一个人过于依赖
开心的时候会下意识收敛开心
想要敞开心扉的时候会再最后一秒决定敷衍..
昨天超问我，你现在想起d..什么感觉？是不是可以脱离开整件事情 像是旁观者一样去感受？
仔细想了很久 但我发现honestly I can’t
曾经数次极大程度的恐惧和不安已经让这个人这件事儿变成了一个dark mass永远留在我心里了
它witensssed了the last piece of innocence dying
所以现在的我很难再去open up whole-heartedly
昨天看第十一回 其实一度很感动想哭
我太理解他们为什么要“在拖拉机下做那种事情了”！
是的 就是在拖拉机下 在泥土里 在一切与decency毫无关系与美好毫无牵连的场景里
Their flesh against the mud
Breath carried away by the storm
Their bodies intertwined with each other
Souls collapsed and resurrected
就在这一刻 就只能在这一刻 我要你
爱情就是这样一种innate, intense, unstoppable的力量
它与思考 与理性 与约束 与规则毫无关系
We live for those moments
This is the kind of once-in-a-lifetime thing that anchors our existence..
体验过 但在删掉他所有联系的那一刻
Part of me died, gone forever
大概再也不会经历这种感觉
但同时也感恩曾经真正的being fearless过
（图文无关 intensive Pilates training D3)

In order to make friends with others, we should be good, not evil; but good, not bad; but true, not false; but friendship, not hatred; but love, not hatred. In this vast world, there are all kinds of living beings, good and bad; true and false, dragon and snake are mixed, so it is very difficult to find a happy person to meet. It's a kind of blessing, a kind of predestination, and a kind of health preservation to be able to communicate with happy people.