其实人生最难过不是你的爱而不得，而是拥有过后的失去，当你突然明白，你和这个人真的没有以后了，以前他给你的温柔，以后他会全部给另一个人了，而你就像是他生命中的一个过客，连发脾气的资格都没有。

In fact, the most sad life is not your love and not, but after having lost, when you suddenly understand, you and this person really no later, before he gave you the gentle, he will all give another person, and you are like a passer-by in his life, even temper qualifications are not. https://t.cn/RyhHyoY

看到灰提起，又開始throwback刀鋒[悲伤]我心中永遠的神，Larry Darrell————

“He was a pleasan-looking boy, neither handsome nor plain, rather shy and in no way remarkable.”

“He gives me such an odd impression sometimes; he gives me the impression of a sleepwalker who’s suddenly wakened in a strange place and can’t think where he is.”

“You know, in learning there’s the lone wolf as well as the wolf who runs in the pack. I think Larry is one of those persons who can go no other way than their own.”

“I felt that there was something within him, I don’t know whether to call it awareness or sensibility or a force, that remained strangely aloof.”

“I can only guess, you know, and I may be quite wrong. I think he’s been seeking for a philosophy, or maybe a religion, and a rule of life that’ll satisfy both his head and his heart.”

“But this is conjecture. I am of the earth, earthy; I can only admire the radiance of such a rare creature, I cannot step into his shoes or enter into his innermost heart as I sometimes think I can do with persons more nearly allied to the common run of men.”

書留在國內沒法重溫，只好看看手機裡存的摘錄，好難受。

改变世界，从改变自己开始

I could not change the town
仍不能如愿

and as an older man,
我已垂垂老矣

I tried to change my family.
我试着改变自己的家人

Now, as an old man,
如今，年老体衰

I realize
我才明白

the only thing I can change is myself,
我唯一能改变的就是自己

and suddenly I realize that
我突然意识到

if long ago I had changed myself,
如果多年前我曾改变自己

I could have made an impact on my family.
或许我会对家人造成很大的影响

My family and I could have made an impact on our town.
我和家人或许会给家乡造成影响

Their impact could have changed the nation
而家乡的改变亦会影响整个国家

and I could indeed have changed the world.
那么我当真可以改变世界了