l just feel like…
women，they…
they have minds and they have souls
as well as just hearts
and they‘ve ambition and they’ve got talent
as well as just beauty
and I'm so sick of people saying
Thant love is just all a women is fit for
I'm so sick of it.
But I'm …I'm so lonely.

有些孤独不是没家人恋人或朋友，是没人愿意相信没人愿意理解，尽管你很坦诚，很倾情以对。
I feel very sad and depressed. That feeling is not lonely is not having family not having lover or not having friends . Is no one understands and no one believes me. It should be worse than loneliness.
我很困扰，感觉这世界一直让我在做选择，为什么非黑即白？一直缠绕着我，why? could you tell me why? That is not black why it is white, why is not white it is black.so are you kidding me ，why cannot is red, blue, yellow or other?
Who are you ?
Who am I ?
If there is no me in the world ？ https://t.cn/RTv4Kyo

“昨天别人在我身旁大声地说出你的名字，这对于我，像从敞开的窗户扔进了一朵玫瑰花。”
Someone said your name out loud beside me yesterday,It was like throwing a rose through an open window.

——Wislawa Szymborska《I used to live this lonely life》