I'm sad
Feeling pain
I thought the life after came back to China will be great like hanging out with friends every day or go travel to somewhere. But the truth is boring. Everybody gonna work. No one can be with me. I hate this goddamn life. It's quite different compared with what I imagined when I was in CA

我希望有个如你一般的人，
如山间清爽的风，
如古城温暖的阳光。
从清晨到夜晚，
从山野到书房，
一切都没有关系，
只要最后是你就好。
I want to have someone like you , like the gentle breeze through the hills , like the warm sunshine in an old town . From dawn till nightfall , from the fields to the study , nothing matters , as long as it's you in the end .

To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you, I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world...