everytime hang up on someone after a remote and inattentive call ,that's how I feel inside:

no reason, not rational, but it just goes on that way and leads to a condition of emotional instability

hard to explain. I do feel pleased out of feeling the connection, yet I am suffering from the inevitable melancholy, that makes feel isolated with the one who cannot show up when I'm vulnerable and sensitive.

suffer

v.
to have a particular disease or medical condition, especially for a long time 〔尤指长期〕罹患

地道表达

In everyday English, people usually say that someone has a medical condition, rather than suffers from it.
在日常英语中，人们表达某人生病时，通常用has，而不用suffer from

Both her children have asthma. 
她的两个孩子都有哮喘。

落地窗帘应该知道的
它应该九点半就叫醒我
房间的闹钟应该知道的
要彻夜不眠地陪着我

熄了灯幻灭了魂
破了戒冷却了真
身体是残存的票根
断了线失去了魂
闭了嘴埋藏了等
我在愣什么

Why should I live in this way
Why should I live in this grave
Why should I suffer this rain
Why should I suffer this pain

背后的影子他在做什么
为什么无时无刻跟着我
眼前的道路它在问什么
总有人毫无理由的走错

熄了灯幻灭了魂
破了戒冷却了真
身体是残存的票根
断了线失去了魂
闭了嘴埋藏了等
我在愣什么

一成不变的生活
我不是一只骆驼
我生在这个沙漠
我要找绿洲
安分守己的过活
那只是一个借口
我要我应该有自由

Why should I ......

《骆驼》
词:戴佩妮
曲:戴佩妮
唱:戴佩妮
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